Lately, my anxiety has been getting the best of me. It’s caused me to back out of ideas and projects that I’ve been wanting to persue. One being Designs. While I’m not the best artist, I thought it would be pretty cool to have my ideas come to life. Having people like my items to the point of which they may want to buy it seemed pretty cool too.
So I started with looking up the best sites to promote my “works” .I created 4 different accounts. They each had features that I loved. I started watching videos on how to make my drawings look better. Downloaded software the whole nine yards. There was a point when the software became a little overwhelming. I started thinking ,maybe I’ll never be as good as the other artists. My work will never sale.
In reality things like that can happen. Maybe I’ll never make a sale. I decided to shut down my sites. In that same week , I went onto my snap chat. (Which I haven’t been on in several weeks) to see a video of one of my favorite artists, Kehlani. She talked about her inner kid. How her 6 year old self would’ve been proud and excited about all of her success, both big and small. She exclaimed that we needed to be our own cheerleaders.
So often we measure our worth by the success of others. That we forget everyone has their own process, everyone has their own path to take in order to be the person they are meant to be. Through trial and error we learn about ourselves and what works best for us. Seeing that Snapchat brought me to tears. I felt as if she was talking directly to me.
It was a special moment not because of the messenger, but the message. And in reading this ,I hope to relay the same message. You can be. Anything you put your mind to. It’s ok to be afraid of the unknown. It’s ok to be unsure of what or whom you’re meant to be. The biggest and best thing you can do for yourself is try, and have fun doing the things you love because they make you happy. Even if you fail at something, at least you tried. In writing this I’m planning on doing more research to open back up my online shops. It may be frustrating at times but I know it’ll all be worth it. I’m becoming my own biggest fan. You should too.
If you read this blog thank you so much for taking the time to do so. Until next time!